My Mom

Being the wonderful daughter that I am, I've only written about the things I don't like about my parents. I think I made a post about my dad a while ago, listing all the things I didn't like about him as a person. I'll probably get to him about the qualities I like about him eventually, but today's post is going to be about my mom.

I spent a lot of today with her, doing errands, and helping her before and after dinner.
She's good people. She's the kind of person I hope to be when I'm her age, minus her humility issues (she compliments herself all the time, which I find hilarious and annoying) and her inability to find the right timing and vocal tone for jokes and sarcasm. She listens to people's opinions, but she's unafraid to voice her own and make a point; to other people, she will admit she can be wrong. She's changed for my dad because he's too stubborn to change for her. She's there for me even though I've done and said some terrible things since she gave birth to me. She's become a great cook, she likes to learn, she makes me laugh.
The other day, she came into my room and asked me what my plan was, because all I've been doing for the past three and bit months is sit in front of my laptop and watch movies, TV shows, YouTube videos (even though I have been productive in other aspects, like reading more, writing more, posting my work on fan sites)...She was visibly upset because I was and still am being lazy. (I've been doing pilates though! So not completely lazy.) Anyway, to answer her question, I said, "I'm taking a break. And I am applying to jobs online." She walked away after I said that, and went back to the movie I was watching. In all honesty, though, who ever has a plan? For life? For anything, ever? I've said this before, but I'm not good at motivating myself, being determined. I'm not passionate about anything and I don't think I will be for a while. For now, all I know is that I want to go to Korea, and once I get my physical degree, I'm going to get in contact with the agencies I've been in contact with. Hopefully they hire me as soon as things get started because I don't want to waste time and money when I could've been doing something else.
That was off-topic, but my point is that she cares for me. In her own twisted way, getting mad at me and asking me, "What are you going to do with your life?" is her way of loving me. I don't like it, but she does it. And I thank her for it.