Anorexia

Before any of you start jumping to conclusions, I am not anorexic. If you saw me, you would see that plainly. But it's been a couple days where I've been thinking about reasons for why girls especially resort to not eating in extreme measures.
There's the usual self-consciousness, caring what other people think, and since society believes that in order to be accepted by the world you have to look a certain way, namely look stick thin, girls don't eat at all.
There's also the athletes that need to keep their weight in check, and are super aware about it that they just stop consuming food.
Then I started to think about the unconventional ways. Like me. If I stopped eating, it would be because in order to lose weight, that'd be the only option for me.
I don't like to exercise. My mom says that in order to do something out of habit, you have to do it every day for at least 30 days. Unfortunately, that doesn't work for me. For example, I am a Christian, and the Bible is our rule book, something we use to understand God and get closer to Him. I read my Bible every day for about 5 months in 2010. And then I stopped. And haven't really gone back to it. I mean, I pick it up every once in a while, flick through the pages, read a verse, then put it down. That's it. So, I thoroughly have to enjoy what I do in order to make it a habit. I do not enjoy playing sports, going out for a walk, running on a treadmill, etc. So how could I lose weight if I don't enjoy physical activity?
I could make a conscious decision not to eat; I'm basically saying I could become an anorexic...The thing that stops me from not eating, however, is that food tastes so good. I don't think I could forgo my palate to not eat, it'd be a waste to not try every flavour out there in the world, to miss the foods that get put in front of me.
In conclusion, I can't not eat :P
Love.

Books

When I was younger, the thing my mom used to tell everyone she met was that I was an introvert, that I could sit still with a book in my lap for hours on end. Now, that sentiment is different...I can still sit still for hours on end, but with my laptop instead of a book.
Things have changed so much since I was little. 12 year olds are ridiculously "more mature" than what I used to be. They care more about their next boyfriend/girlfriend relationship than going home and reading a book, or watching their cartoons as soon as school is over. They swear more, they're not respectful, less healthy. I sometimes think that it's not just the kids' fault, but the parents.
But I digress.
I have a lot of books in my room, as well as there are numerous books in every room in our house. And there are books that I want to read. For example, my sister bought me the Hunger Games trilogy for my birthday, and I said that I'd read them during my break this winter...I haven't picked up a book since the end of school, except for the time when I bought a book for a friend's Secret Santa. My motivation for reading is almost non-existent. As much as I want to read the book, actually picking it up is the challenge. I find that things on the internet are more entertaining than reading a book. I think I'm becoming more fast paced than my younger self...And I don't like that change.
I know, everyone changes. But some things you wish stayed the same.
Love.

Update/Overview of 2012

Finals are over. (Started freaking out about passing my classes shortly afterward.) Early morning bedtimes are a go. 1130 seems to be my wake up time. And Christmas is close by.
I actually have a lot I want to blog about (I legit have a list, in the memo section of my phone) before the end of the year (2013 here we come; Mayans what?). I hope to have a post up at least once every day until the 1st of January. I also hope that sentence comes true.
I just wanted to say that I'm at a loss.
2012 was a good and bad year for me. Good because I discovered a lot on the internet. Let's list them all...

1. YouTubers
• dailygrace
• myharto
• jennamarbles
• ydad
• danisnotonfire
• more vlogbrothers, and so on
  It's such a huge community...I hope to eventually know of all of the people that pop up on that wonderful site I enjoy so much
2. Twitter 
• I'm seriously addicted. Follow me! @paulajaey
  
3. Facebook games
• Don't judge...WeTopia, Solitaire Blitz, and Fashion Designer are a few of my faves at the moment. 
  
4. Online TV
• I discovered a lot of new shows this year. They include Person of Interest, Elementary, Sherlock, Grimm, and Smash. There are probably more, but I get obsessed.
  
5. Other sites
• I can't disclose them...because they could possibly illegal, and embarrassing to me.
  
6. Fangirling
• Courtesy of my sister, as well as tyleroakley on YouTube
  
7. Shipping
• It started from #8...Two KPop stars whom I love and want to get together. *sigh. Only in my dreams.
  
8. KPop
• I love it. Seriously. 2NE1 forever and always...as well as most of YG and SMTown ;D

Then bad because of not doing so hot in school, my accidents, my summer, family issues (mostly parents scolding me for not being productive, getting a job)...A lot of things. I think I said earlier that 2012 has probably been the worst year for me so far. And it has. All the good things pertain to me being alone, on my laptop/desktop. That shouldn't be how years go. They should be more exciting than that. So I hope 2013 is better. We shall see. Love.
PS. End of the world? Today?...I think no.