My Sister's Keeper

I don't know about you guys, but I get the best inspiration before, during, and after a shower. Doesn't matter how long or short the shower is, my best ideas come from there.

Anyway, I just took a shower, and I was thinking about the book My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. I haven't read the book or seen the movie, but I now the premise. For those who don't know what it's about, it's about a couple who has a very sick daughter, and they have another daughter just so the other daughter can provide whatever the sick daughter needs (in this case, I looked up, bone marrow). As I was thinking about the book, I also thought about a time when I was at either a day summer camp or a week-long stay-over bible camp and when one of the councillors asked me where my sister was. I said I didn't know, and he/she asked, "So you're not her keeper?" In that moment, I said no without hesitating, and he/she nodded her head quietly.
First off, wouldn't it be sad to be the sibling of someone who's dying, and be the only reason he/she is alive? And your only purpose of living is to keep the other person alive? What kind of life is that? What kind of parents would do that do someone who is genetically made up of them? I'm asking these questions as a non-parent, but I mean, come on. Any human being would realize that it's wrong, right? Why wouldn't the parents give up the bone marrow themselves? Couldn't they just have planned to have two kids anyway, and asked the other child when he or she was old enough to donate their bone marrow to his or her sibling?...Okay, maybe I'm thinking too much about this, but I'm serious. It's not okay.
Secondly (and I haven't looked into this), couldn't the parents in the book have genetically made bone marrow? Is that possible? I mean, we can grow organs, we can do artificial insemination...Are we not at bone marrow yet? Also, isn't there a bone marrow bank or something? Couldn't they just have gone there to find it for their daughter?
And about the event that happened in my life: am I her keeper? I don't think I've written about my sister recently, but I've gotten to find her very annoying. I've realized that she cares more about people outside her family rather than her family, which includes me. I know it's petty, but I know I care a lot more, I spend a lot more, and I do a lot more for her than she has ever done for me. These days I would really like to get away from my family, her included, which wasn't like that before. I thought I would like to live with her, away from our parents, but not anymore. It would be insufferable to live with her because she doesn't do anything except for herself in the family.

What do you guys think about the book? Are you your sibling(s)'s keeper?

My Mom

Being the wonderful daughter that I am, I've only written about the things I don't like about my parents. I think I made a post about my dad a while ago, listing all the things I didn't like about him as a person. I'll probably get to him about the qualities I like about him eventually, but today's post is going to be about my mom.

I spent a lot of today with her, doing errands, and helping her before and after dinner.
She's good people. She's the kind of person I hope to be when I'm her age, minus her humility issues (she compliments herself all the time, which I find hilarious and annoying) and her inability to find the right timing and vocal tone for jokes and sarcasm. She listens to people's opinions, but she's unafraid to voice her own and make a point; to other people, she will admit she can be wrong. She's changed for my dad because he's too stubborn to change for her. She's there for me even though I've done and said some terrible things since she gave birth to me. She's become a great cook, she likes to learn, she makes me laugh.
The other day, she came into my room and asked me what my plan was, because all I've been doing for the past three and bit months is sit in front of my laptop and watch movies, TV shows, YouTube videos (even though I have been productive in other aspects, like reading more, writing more, posting my work on fan sites)...She was visibly upset because I was and still am being lazy. (I've been doing pilates though! So not completely lazy.) Anyway, to answer her question, I said, "I'm taking a break. And I am applying to jobs online." She walked away after I said that, and went back to the movie I was watching. In all honesty, though, who ever has a plan? For life? For anything, ever? I've said this before, but I'm not good at motivating myself, being determined. I'm not passionate about anything and I don't think I will be for a while. For now, all I know is that I want to go to Korea, and once I get my physical degree, I'm going to get in contact with the agencies I've been in contact with. Hopefully they hire me as soon as things get started because I don't want to waste time and money when I could've been doing something else.
That was off-topic, but my point is that she cares for me. In her own twisted way, getting mad at me and asking me, "What are you going to do with your life?" is her way of loving me. I don't like it, but she does it. And I thank her for it.