I just wanted to note that I am getting hecka deja vu going on right now. I don't think I have ever had deja vu this many times in this small amount of time...Like, just today, I've had deja vu 3 times. 3 TIMES. That has to be a world record or something.
Anyway, I wanted to note this down publicly, so I can come back and see how I started my future as a psychic ;D
Wednesday, 11 June 2014
Friday, 6 June 2014
My Summer So Far
So, this doesn't have a main topic. I realized it's been a while, and I should let you guys know how I'm doing!
I finished my spring semester...nicely. Not the best, but not the worst either. And now I'm doing a summer semester. No break for me this year. Gotta get that degree done, son!
And a few things have changed for me as of a while ago. I don't know if I told you guys, but I've started to write fanfiction! I think there's a stigma around sharing your fanfic account. Like you don't want people you know you write fanfic, because fans be cray, y'know? And your friends/family might be shocked about your writing style/topics aka sexy time everywhere! ;) So, I'm just going to let you know I have a fanfic with stories posted up...You're just going to have to be creative and try and find me. (Psst, it's not that hard. But hopefully you're not *that* curious XD )
Also, I'm thinking I'll be moving down to the states as soon as I finish the fall semester in December. Of course, it's not set in stone, I'm just typing stuff so I have stuff to type!
Music-wise, things have been blowing up. I've been getting into electronica recently. I liked the genre, but I hadn't ever really explored it before now. And I'm obsessed. (RoboCLIP on SoundCloud and fictiondnb on YouTube, if you're curious as to what I'm listening to.) Plus, IGGY AZALEA YOOOOO! The New Classic is crazy good, and she is amazingly talented. Seriously. Listen to it, buy it, tweet her that you love her and all that jazz LOL. Then there's all the other various miscellaneous songs I've been encountering, like Betty Who's Heartbreak Dream and Rather Be by Clean Bandit ft Jess Glynne. (They're good; check 'em out ^^)
Hopefully this isn't a record on replay, because I may have talked about this stuff already...Ah well. Tis my blog; I can do what I want, haha!
I finished my spring semester...nicely. Not the best, but not the worst either. And now I'm doing a summer semester. No break for me this year. Gotta get that degree done, son!
And a few things have changed for me as of a while ago. I don't know if I told you guys, but I've started to write fanfiction! I think there's a stigma around sharing your fanfic account. Like you don't want people you know you write fanfic, because fans be cray, y'know? And your friends/family might be shocked about your writing style/topics aka sexy time everywhere! ;) So, I'm just going to let you know I have a fanfic with stories posted up...You're just going to have to be creative and try and find me. (Psst, it's not that hard. But hopefully you're not *that* curious XD )
Also, I'm thinking I'll be moving down to the states as soon as I finish the fall semester in December. Of course, it's not set in stone, I'm just typing stuff so I have stuff to type!
Music-wise, things have been blowing up. I've been getting into electronica recently. I liked the genre, but I hadn't ever really explored it before now. And I'm obsessed. (RoboCLIP on SoundCloud and fictiondnb on YouTube, if you're curious as to what I'm listening to.) Plus, IGGY AZALEA YOOOOO! The New Classic is crazy good, and she is amazingly talented. Seriously. Listen to it, buy it, tweet her that you love her and all that jazz LOL. Then there's all the other various miscellaneous songs I've been encountering, like Betty Who's Heartbreak Dream and Rather Be by Clean Bandit ft Jess Glynne. (They're good; check 'em out ^^)
Hopefully this isn't a record on replay, because I may have talked about this stuff already...Ah well. Tis my blog; I can do what I want, haha!
Tuesday, 29 April 2014
To My Future Husband
(I'll be adding and editing this as time goes on...)
The only couple relationship I have been exposed to the most is my mom and dad. I think this is typical of any person, and when said person gets married to someone, he/she brings certain aspects of that relationship in their own.
However, there are also something things he/she would change. Like me.
There's something about my parents's relationship that doesn't agree with me...mainly that my father is a misogynist. He expects everything to be handed to him without any criticism, which mostly include meals. I understand he's the breadwinner and handy-man of the family and he's allowed to relax when he gets home. BUT (and this is a big, humongous, ginormous but) the members of his family would extremely appreciate it if he could set the table for a meal, or take the dog out for a walk, or do the dishes every once in a while.
I feel like my parents are the only ones that act like this because I've heard of other people's parents *not* being like this.
Anyway, this post is for my future husband, so let's get right down to it:
Hey hon. I'm basically going to list a few (heh) things that I want you to do for me when we start living as a married couple, and this list is going off the assumption that both of us are doing what we want to do (and work full time).
The only couple relationship I have been exposed to the most is my mom and dad. I think this is typical of any person, and when said person gets married to someone, he/she brings certain aspects of that relationship in their own.
However, there are also something things he/she would change. Like me.
There's something about my parents's relationship that doesn't agree with me...mainly that my father is a misogynist. He expects everything to be handed to him without any criticism, which mostly include meals. I understand he's the breadwinner and handy-man of the family and he's allowed to relax when he gets home. BUT (and this is a big, humongous, ginormous but) the members of his family would extremely appreciate it if he could set the table for a meal, or take the dog out for a walk, or do the dishes every once in a while.
I feel like my parents are the only ones that act like this because I've heard of other people's parents *not* being like this.
Anyway, this post is for my future husband, so let's get right down to it:
Hey hon. I'm basically going to list a few (heh) things that I want you to do for me when we start living as a married couple, and this list is going off the assumption that both of us are doing what we want to do (and work full time).
- Make half the meals in our home: we either make breakfast/lunch/dinner for each other every other night or switch off weeks or make it together or something. We'll figure it out.
- When you make the meals, I'll set the table and do the dishes; and vice versa.
- Grocery shopping is a thing.
- If either of us sees that the other is dressing strangely and/or the laundry basket is full, do the laundry. Obviously, "full" is subjective, but I trust you. (Separate the colours and whites ^.~)
This will change once we have kids (because we've talked about it and want kids eventually), but "we'll figure it out." <3
Tuesday, 15 April 2014
Self Realization
I might do a series of these, if they turn out to be any good...
A thought popped into my head the other day: I like to sleep.
That wasn't the thought, but give me a second.
I like to sleep a lot. I like the idea of giving my eyes a rest and cozying up in my quilt to give myself over to a well deserved rest (even though I may have been on my butt, sitting in front of my laptop all day long). But I've been having difficulties falling asleep these past few months, and I don't know why.
One, I don't stress easy because I procrastinate a lot...That's a weird statement, but it's true. If something stresses me out, I leave it, don't touch it, put it off until the last possible moment. And this works for me, strangely enough. Therefore, I should be able to fall asleep...NOT.
Two, I listen to ASMR and I have ASMR. It's nice, feeling tingles in the back of my head and all over my body. Some times, it works. Other times, it doesn't. I keep searching for that ultimate ASMRtist or video that will let me fall asleep without fail. So far, nothing. And I'll keep looking. Lots of videos have relaxed me and have let me fall asleep (after listening to it 18 times on my iPod), but it's not automatic when I wish it was.
Three, when I do sleep, I sleep like a rock...I sleep well. (I move around in my sleep; rocks don't move.) And I'd like to reach this stage ASAP.
Ok, all of this was leading up to this: I like to be cold when I sleep. This is a strange statement too. But hear me out. I'm a hot person. As in, I'm usually the person people sidle up to because they're cold and they need a heater. I am that human heater.
Last night, I left my window open. (It's getting to the point where the weather is being somewhat nice and warming up so I'm allowed to leave my window open, so the heating bill won't be ridiculous.) And I fell asleep almost instantly. It was sooooo nice. And when I woke up, I had realized I had gotten a decent 9.5 hours of sleep. Which hasn't happened in a long time.
If I was allowed to leave my window open during the winter months (which I'm not, because heating is a bitch, and cold air causes the house to cool which causes the boiler to kick in...This was the point I was trying to get at in the earlier parentheses; my parents pay the bill), I would have had awesome sleeps!
Alas, this was not to be, so I'll be catching up on a lot of sleep these next few weeks! WOOHOO!
Got any weird sleeping habits/rituals/necessities? Tell me :)
A thought popped into my head the other day: I like to sleep.
That wasn't the thought, but give me a second.
I like to sleep a lot. I like the idea of giving my eyes a rest and cozying up in my quilt to give myself over to a well deserved rest (even though I may have been on my butt, sitting in front of my laptop all day long). But I've been having difficulties falling asleep these past few months, and I don't know why.
One, I don't stress easy because I procrastinate a lot...That's a weird statement, but it's true. If something stresses me out, I leave it, don't touch it, put it off until the last possible moment. And this works for me, strangely enough. Therefore, I should be able to fall asleep...NOT.
Two, I listen to ASMR and I have ASMR. It's nice, feeling tingles in the back of my head and all over my body. Some times, it works. Other times, it doesn't. I keep searching for that ultimate ASMRtist or video that will let me fall asleep without fail. So far, nothing. And I'll keep looking. Lots of videos have relaxed me and have let me fall asleep (after listening to it 18 times on my iPod), but it's not automatic when I wish it was.
Three, when I do sleep, I sleep like a rock...I sleep well. (I move around in my sleep; rocks don't move.) And I'd like to reach this stage ASAP.
Ok, all of this was leading up to this: I like to be cold when I sleep. This is a strange statement too. But hear me out. I'm a hot person. As in, I'm usually the person people sidle up to because they're cold and they need a heater. I am that human heater.
Last night, I left my window open. (It's getting to the point where the weather is being somewhat nice and warming up so I'm allowed to leave my window open, so the heating bill won't be ridiculous.) And I fell asleep almost instantly. It was sooooo nice. And when I woke up, I had realized I had gotten a decent 9.5 hours of sleep. Which hasn't happened in a long time.
If I was allowed to leave my window open during the winter months (which I'm not, because heating is a bitch, and cold air causes the house to cool which causes the boiler to kick in...This was the point I was trying to get at in the earlier parentheses; my parents pay the bill), I would have had awesome sleeps!
Alas, this was not to be, so I'll be catching up on a lot of sleep these next few weeks! WOOHOO!
Got any weird sleeping habits/rituals/necessities? Tell me :)
Sunday, 16 March 2014
I Don't Have A Family
Mild swearing. Because I'm human.
The title sounds tres harsh, but I'm coming to believe that it's true.
I have a family. Duh. Everyone has a family, somewhere in the world. Mine have just been becoming obsolete.
Take my flesh-and-blood family. I don't know if we were ever close, but these days, we all do our own thing in different rooms. We used to eat dinners together, but now we don't. We used to be able to hold a conversation for a while, but now we can't; we didn't ever used to talk about the "important" things, but we don't even talk about the little things anymore! We don't ask each other questions, let each other know what should be done around the house (we just do it when we see it, and it's usually me or my mom who does it)...it's getting strained.
These past couple weeks, we've been without the main caretaker of the house: my mom was in Korea, visiting family and sight-seeing. The first week was ok: we had food and that's basically all we need to function. The second week started to really kill me: I go to school full-time (readings, presentation preps, and papers are taking up a lot of my time now. It's crunch time in the land of post-secondary school), and taking care of a dad who doesn't do shit (even though he's been home, sitting on his ass in front of the computer because his company is on strike. Lazy fuck) because, "It's the woman's job to do the shopping, cooking and cleaning, and you need to learn how to do it," and a sister who is barely home because she also goes to school full-time and works part-time but stays cooped up in her room once she is home is not a walk in the park.
First of all, I would happily do the shopping, but I do NOT have a Costco card, and that is where we do most of our shopping. I'm also not the breadwinner of the house, so spending money out of what I have in my account is rough on tuition money for the future. Second of all, my dad can cook. So can my sister. They can do the basics, but it's enough to keep them alive. Plus, we had a lot of frozen food in the freezer, so either of them could have just popped a pizza in the oven and ate. Also, there is a thing known as take-out. But my dad in particular is picky, because he's over 50 years old and he wants all of his food to be Korean. And there's no way in hell that I make Korean food, because (a) I don't want it every day of the rest of the my life and (b) I can't make it/don't want to learn how to make it. Lastly, there is only so much a girl can do with cleaning: I can do dishes, I can unload a dishwasher, I can sweep the floor, I can do laundry. I am not willing to do it every day that my mom isn't here however; everyone else should pitch in, am I right? NO ONE DID. Shitheads. I cannot (or will not) lug a 50 lb vacuum all over the house...and that's the only scenario in which I can think of that I won't do in the department of cleaning.
That kind of went into more than I wanted it to, but you get the point. We are just a bunch of individuals living under the same roof; we are not a family.
As to my family at camp, I've sort of cut them out. At least, in my head. I also wrote a letter to one of the interns that works there, telling him the reason I won't be coming out this year. It's mostly to do with me not liking the changes that the new director is making, but I can't say anything about them because, well, there wouldn't be a point. I also feel as though I'm super dependent on the place, to relax and to fellowship with other Christians...The last time I went, I didn't feel relaxed and I didn't really want to spend time with the people. The atmosphere is not as pleasant to me as it used to be, so I've just decided to not go at all this year. Quitting cold turkey. So far, it's going ok. But I'm thinking people will start to wonder why I'm not there (not to sound selfish or brag-y or anything) as the year goes on.
As for my friends, they're not close enough for me to consider them family. At one time, maybe. But now, I don't have friends [from school] who I would talk to on a regular basis to let them know what's up, how my mind is feeling, why I'm so freaking stressed out, etc.
I was thinking I should go see a therapist, just to get my brain all sorted out, get my feelings out in the open and in check...Then I realized I don't want to pay for a therapist at the moment. So maybe I should look into free therapy sessions? I don't even know if those exist...*Google*
Alright guys, sorry for the ranty bit at the beginning. But I needed to get all the feels out. Especially after the half hour cry I had before I started typing. Yeah, I know, emo girl, right here. ;)
The title sounds tres harsh, but I'm coming to believe that it's true.
I have a family. Duh. Everyone has a family, somewhere in the world. Mine have just been becoming obsolete.
Take my flesh-and-blood family. I don't know if we were ever close, but these days, we all do our own thing in different rooms. We used to eat dinners together, but now we don't. We used to be able to hold a conversation for a while, but now we can't; we didn't ever used to talk about the "important" things, but we don't even talk about the little things anymore! We don't ask each other questions, let each other know what should be done around the house (we just do it when we see it, and it's usually me or my mom who does it)...it's getting strained.
These past couple weeks, we've been without the main caretaker of the house: my mom was in Korea, visiting family and sight-seeing. The first week was ok: we had food and that's basically all we need to function. The second week started to really kill me: I go to school full-time (readings, presentation preps, and papers are taking up a lot of my time now. It's crunch time in the land of post-secondary school), and taking care of a dad who doesn't do shit (even though he's been home, sitting on his ass in front of the computer because his company is on strike. Lazy fuck) because, "It's the woman's job to do the shopping, cooking and cleaning, and you need to learn how to do it," and a sister who is barely home because she also goes to school full-time and works part-time but stays cooped up in her room once she is home is not a walk in the park.
First of all, I would happily do the shopping, but I do NOT have a Costco card, and that is where we do most of our shopping. I'm also not the breadwinner of the house, so spending money out of what I have in my account is rough on tuition money for the future. Second of all, my dad can cook. So can my sister. They can do the basics, but it's enough to keep them alive. Plus, we had a lot of frozen food in the freezer, so either of them could have just popped a pizza in the oven and ate. Also, there is a thing known as take-out. But my dad in particular is picky, because he's over 50 years old and he wants all of his food to be Korean. And there's no way in hell that I make Korean food, because (a) I don't want it every day of the rest of the my life and (b) I can't make it/don't want to learn how to make it. Lastly, there is only so much a girl can do with cleaning: I can do dishes, I can unload a dishwasher, I can sweep the floor, I can do laundry. I am not willing to do it every day that my mom isn't here however; everyone else should pitch in, am I right? NO ONE DID. Shitheads. I cannot (or will not) lug a 50 lb vacuum all over the house...and that's the only scenario in which I can think of that I won't do in the department of cleaning.
That kind of went into more than I wanted it to, but you get the point. We are just a bunch of individuals living under the same roof; we are not a family.
As to my family at camp, I've sort of cut them out. At least, in my head. I also wrote a letter to one of the interns that works there, telling him the reason I won't be coming out this year. It's mostly to do with me not liking the changes that the new director is making, but I can't say anything about them because, well, there wouldn't be a point. I also feel as though I'm super dependent on the place, to relax and to fellowship with other Christians...The last time I went, I didn't feel relaxed and I didn't really want to spend time with the people. The atmosphere is not as pleasant to me as it used to be, so I've just decided to not go at all this year. Quitting cold turkey. So far, it's going ok. But I'm thinking people will start to wonder why I'm not there (not to sound selfish or brag-y or anything) as the year goes on.
As for my friends, they're not close enough for me to consider them family. At one time, maybe. But now, I don't have friends [from school] who I would talk to on a regular basis to let them know what's up, how my mind is feeling, why I'm so freaking stressed out, etc.
I was thinking I should go see a therapist, just to get my brain all sorted out, get my feelings out in the open and in check...Then I realized I don't want to pay for a therapist at the moment. So maybe I should look into free therapy sessions? I don't even know if those exist...*Google*
Alright guys, sorry for the ranty bit at the beginning. But I needed to get all the feels out. Especially after the half hour cry I had before I started typing. Yeah, I know, emo girl, right here. ;)
Thursday, 27 February 2014
Sleep
Hey guys,
I wanted to make a journal-style post this time, so I hope you don't mind.
I've been having a hard time sleeping: turning off my bedroom light only to bring my laptop on my lap, sitting on my bed, surfing fanfiction and social media sites. I have been listening to ASMR (see previous blog post about ASMR), and it's nice (I love the tingly sensations I get from listening to it), but it doesn't always help me fall asleep (because I'm doing other things on the computer, like reading fanfiction and tweeting about every little thing and thought). My eyes are hurting though. They're a bit sore and achy whenever I do close my eyes, so that's a problem. I definitely need to sleep...I guess I've just been going to bed late, usually in the 1 to 2 AM range. Which is bad. Because I need my rest. The body needs rest in general. My mind just wants to keep going and take in every Tom Hiddleston pic and Avengers fanfiction out there. TMI? ;)
You people been getting your recommended 6-8 hours of sleep? You better be...Gah, who am I to judge. I've been getting 7-ish when I really need 10-12 XD
<3
I wanted to make a journal-style post this time, so I hope you don't mind.
I've been having a hard time sleeping: turning off my bedroom light only to bring my laptop on my lap, sitting on my bed, surfing fanfiction and social media sites. I have been listening to ASMR (see previous blog post about ASMR), and it's nice (I love the tingly sensations I get from listening to it), but it doesn't always help me fall asleep (because I'm doing other things on the computer, like reading fanfiction and tweeting about every little thing and thought). My eyes are hurting though. They're a bit sore and achy whenever I do close my eyes, so that's a problem. I definitely need to sleep...I guess I've just been going to bed late, usually in the 1 to 2 AM range. Which is bad. Because I need my rest. The body needs rest in general. My mind just wants to keep going and take in every Tom Hiddleston pic and Avengers fanfiction out there. TMI? ;)
You people been getting your recommended 6-8 hours of sleep? You better be...Gah, who am I to judge. I've been getting 7-ish when I really need 10-12 XD
<3
Saturday, 8 February 2014
Music Selfishness
I love music. And I love finding new music. Recently, I've found a lot of stuff from "lesser-know" [Canadian] artists and it's all amazing! I wish it was easier to find new music...
Anyway, what I wanted to say was that I'm very selfish about my music. I mean, when I find a song or an artist I love immediately, I want to spread the word about it/him/her. However, sometimes when you post a good song on social media, no one ever really listens to it. I've definitely been guilty of this: scrolling through my news feed on Facebook, for example, and passing a YouTube music video one of my friend's has dubbed "the best ever."
Then again, there are other times when I share a song with a friend and they get super into it and/or the artist too. This is where the selfishness comes in: I want to keep the artist to myself and not have other people obsess over him/her. Although it's good for the artist when more people know about him/her because fame/money is one of the ultimate goals for singers (right?), I would rather keep him/her to myself.
Alas, this will never be, because someone else might accidentally stumble onto this person as well, and I have no control over that. So I have a very hypocritical way of looking at music I love ;)
Do any of you guys feel the same way?
Anyway, what I wanted to say was that I'm very selfish about my music. I mean, when I find a song or an artist I love immediately, I want to spread the word about it/him/her. However, sometimes when you post a good song on social media, no one ever really listens to it. I've definitely been guilty of this: scrolling through my news feed on Facebook, for example, and passing a YouTube music video one of my friend's has dubbed "the best ever."
Then again, there are other times when I share a song with a friend and they get super into it and/or the artist too. This is where the selfishness comes in: I want to keep the artist to myself and not have other people obsess over him/her. Although it's good for the artist when more people know about him/her because fame/money is one of the ultimate goals for singers (right?), I would rather keep him/her to myself.
Alas, this will never be, because someone else might accidentally stumble onto this person as well, and I have no control over that. So I have a very hypocritical way of looking at music I love ;)
Do any of you guys feel the same way?
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