Still on that KPop/Korean culture kick...It's been 5 months O_O
Anyway, I've updated my favourite K celeb list. Just thought some of you might be interested ;)
Wednesday, 17 December 2014
Sunday, 16 November 2014
Just One Of Those Days
I've already written this down in so many other places, but I thought I'd share what I'm feeling here too, since it has been a while. Maybe talking about it would help me better, but every time I feel like I want to talk about it, I tear up.
Okay, so I'm bottling a bunch of little things inside myself and that's why I'm crying like a crazy person. One of the things has been building up for a while, but it wasn't until recently when the little things happened that I decided to get emotional.
Okay, so I'm bottling a bunch of little things inside myself and that's why I'm crying like a crazy person. One of the things has been building up for a while, but it wasn't until recently when the little things happened that I decided to get emotional.
- I got a hair cut on Thursday. And, in general, I like the style. However, after I took a shower that night, I realized there were a few mistakes. Let's list them, shall we: there are a few hairs around my ear that are *way* longer than the rest; the hair on one side of my head is longer than the other side; there's a section of hair on the top of my head, but in the back that is longer than the rest; and there's another section of hair in the front that is cut bluntly. Also, I have bleached hair, and dead ends come with the bleaching. I thought the guy would have noticed, and I asked for a trim, but there are still fried ends in my hair, mostly in my bangs.
- I went to a housewarming/dinner party at a friend's house. I wanted to leave early because I wanted to see my mom and I also wanted to relax before I went to bed. I left around 7:45 to catch the bus, and I waited at a stop with a bench which had a covering. I got to the stop, and after a minute, I noticed a woman standing right at the post, so I assumed she was getting on the same bus as I was. The bus arrived, and it didn't stop. It paused, but it paused way after the stop post/pole/thing. I thought the driver saw me walking towards the door through his side mirror, and he might have, but he just kept on going. I ran to the next stop, but I, of course, missed it. Then, instead of waiting another hour, I decided to walk to where I needed to be.
- My birthday is coming up, and I'm actually doing something for it. I invited my sister. And now she can't come, even though I need her to be there. Because I'm an introvert and I need someone I'm familiar with. She makes me comfortable and normal, and I'm the most myself when I'm around her, with someone other than myself.
- And this one was a long time coming: what I'm going to do with my life. I'm going to be completely done with school on the 27th. It's my last day of class. And I have no idea what I'm going to do after. I was thinking about my passions these past couple weeks, and I don't have any. I thought I did, but I don't, because I don't love them as much as I did. Therefore, looking for a job is going to be extra hard because I don't even know where to start.
There's probably more. But for now, this is what's plaguing my mind. And the reason why my eyes are stinging. So, yeah. My heart and soul, out on the internet.
I don't know how to end this, so I'm just going to say bye.
Bye.
Tuesday, 28 October 2014
Importance
Guys, I don't do shit.
Like, I literally don't do anything.
The other day, I was talking to a friend, who is graduating at the same time as I am, and she told me she applied for graduation during the early application time. I, on the other hand, did not, because I had forgotten the dates/didn't mark the deadlines on my calendar. So I had to pay the normal prices for my degrees and certificate (which is totally dumb: why do I have to pay money for a piece of paper?! I could just print it myself!), even though I won't be going to convocation (because I just don't want go through another graduation ceremony). I kept freaking out during the first 45 minutes or so of class because I now had to pay more money when I could have avoided it 10 days earlier. I was trying to remember what I was doing on the date of the deadline, and I couldn't, which means I wasn't doing anything important. I wasn't doing anything important.
Why am I like this? I don't have a job, I don't volunteer, I hang out with my friends on the rare occasion, and I only go to school 3 days a week. WHAT THE HELL SELF.
After a bit, I realized I couldn't do anything about it, the date had passed so boo hoo. I applied for graduation just a couple of hours ago, so I wouldn't panic later in the semester...Choked I had to pay about $200 for it, but ah well.
Like, I literally don't do anything.
The other day, I was talking to a friend, who is graduating at the same time as I am, and she told me she applied for graduation during the early application time. I, on the other hand, did not, because I had forgotten the dates/didn't mark the deadlines on my calendar. So I had to pay the normal prices for my degrees and certificate (which is totally dumb: why do I have to pay money for a piece of paper?! I could just print it myself!), even though I won't be going to convocation (because I just don't want go through another graduation ceremony). I kept freaking out during the first 45 minutes or so of class because I now had to pay more money when I could have avoided it 10 days earlier. I was trying to remember what I was doing on the date of the deadline, and I couldn't, which means I wasn't doing anything important. I wasn't doing anything important.
Why am I like this? I don't have a job, I don't volunteer, I hang out with my friends on the rare occasion, and I only go to school 3 days a week. WHAT THE HELL SELF.
After a bit, I realized I couldn't do anything about it, the date had passed so boo hoo. I applied for graduation just a couple of hours ago, so I wouldn't panic later in the semester...Choked I had to pay about $200 for it, but ah well.
Life and Death
Originally written (on actual paper) on October 14th, during my English (484W) class.
Disclosure: I believe in heaven and hell. If you don't, that's your opinion. I also swear at the end, which is uncommon in my posts. Deal.
I got this pang in my body (stomach?) and in my head. I know I've talked about my heart hurting in a previous blog post, but this is different. People talk about existential crises...What I just experienced was not it. It's like I saw my death and afterlife. I was just thinking about growing old.
No. Back up. My prof was talking about the definition of "mate" in Australia: it's your best friend, someone you would put before your blood relations and someone you would ultimately die for. My mate is a blood relative, and I was contemplating dying for her. Then I got to thinking about my parents, and would I die for them? I immediately answered no. This is when I had my flash forward moment.
Would I go to hell for thinking that, answering negatively? Then I remembered a time when my mom, or someone else, told me that in heaven, you wouldn't remember who was who in your physical life: Mom vs friend vs spouse, etc. And then I started wondering how I would react to seeing my family in heaven: if I would be civilized to m dad, or if I would hug my aunt, or if I would have a deep and meaningful conversation with my uncle.
Then I got scared. I don't know where I'm going to go after I die. I could burn in hell or do fun things in heaven. Right? And I won't have my physical body, right? I don't know! And that freaks the shit out of me. 80 years of living? What if I get raptured before getting to anything I wanted to do? That's fucking scary.
Disclosure: I believe in heaven and hell. If you don't, that's your opinion. I also swear at the end, which is uncommon in my posts. Deal.
I got this pang in my body (stomach?) and in my head. I know I've talked about my heart hurting in a previous blog post, but this is different. People talk about existential crises...What I just experienced was not it. It's like I saw my death and afterlife. I was just thinking about growing old.
No. Back up. My prof was talking about the definition of "mate" in Australia: it's your best friend, someone you would put before your blood relations and someone you would ultimately die for. My mate is a blood relative, and I was contemplating dying for her. Then I got to thinking about my parents, and would I die for them? I immediately answered no. This is when I had my flash forward moment.
Would I go to hell for thinking that, answering negatively? Then I remembered a time when my mom, or someone else, told me that in heaven, you wouldn't remember who was who in your physical life: Mom vs friend vs spouse, etc. And then I started wondering how I would react to seeing my family in heaven: if I would be civilized to m dad, or if I would hug my aunt, or if I would have a deep and meaningful conversation with my uncle.
Then I got scared. I don't know where I'm going to go after I die. I could burn in hell or do fun things in heaven. Right? And I won't have my physical body, right? I don't know! And that freaks the shit out of me. 80 years of living? What if I get raptured before getting to anything I wanted to do? That's fucking scary.
Sunday, 14 September 2014
KPop
Guys, I have been so obsessed with KPop recently. It basically started after I finished my summer semester because of the Korean reality TV show called Roommate. The premise of the show is putting celebrities together in a house and becoming roommates. One of the celebrities is my all-time favourite KPop star: Park Bom.
However, I became consumed with the other roommates as well. Most specifically, Chanyeol from EXO. And this is where KPop took over my life once again, but this time, to the next level.
I have watched almost every YouTube fan-made video and variety show and reality show EXO has been a part of in the last month and a half. It's crazy. I have switched biases in that group *so* many times I have lost count.
Anyway, what I wanted to do here was list my biases/favourite Korean celebrities, which I will be editing and adding to from time to time...I'll just mention one member from each group, but I truly do love them all! Here we go:
Park Bom from 2NE1
Lay from EXO
Nana from After School/Orange Caramel
Amber from f(x)
Hyoyeon from Girls' Generation
Wooyoung from 2PM
Ryeowook from Super Junior
Kwanghee from ZE:A
T.O.P./Choi Seunghyun from Big Bang (rapper/actor)
Ga In from Brown Eyed Girls
Di from Rania
Jung Shin from CNBlue
Dohee from Tiny-G
Mark from GOT7
Mino from Winner
Yewon from [former; they disbanded] Jewelry
Jiyoon from 4Minute
Youngji from KARA
Soryong from Tasty (yeah, I know, they're twins. Whatever XD)
Tablo from EPIK HIGH
Yoon Mi Rae
Lee Hi
Baek Ji Young
Jung In
Jo Jung Chi
Eric Nam
Kim Jong Kook
Kang Gary
Ha Dong Hoon
Bi (Rain)
Song Ga Yeon
Park Min Woo
Lee Dong Wook
Song Ji Hyo
Song Joong Ki
Go Soo
Han Hyo Joo
Im Joo Hwan
Lee Kwang Soo
Kim Woo Bin
Yoo Jae Suk
Ji Suk Jin
Jang Dong Min
I hope you all are doing well! <3
However, I became consumed with the other roommates as well. Most specifically, Chanyeol from EXO. And this is where KPop took over my life once again, but this time, to the next level.
I have watched almost every YouTube fan-made video and variety show and reality show EXO has been a part of in the last month and a half. It's crazy. I have switched biases in that group *so* many times I have lost count.
Anyway, what I wanted to do here was list my biases/favourite Korean celebrities, which I will be editing and adding to from time to time...I'll just mention one member from each group, but I truly do love them all! Here we go:
Park Bom from 2NE1
Lay from EXO
Nana from After School/Orange Caramel
Amber from f(x)
Hyoyeon from Girls' Generation
Wooyoung from 2PM
Ryeowook from Super Junior
Kwanghee from ZE:A
T.O.P./Choi Seunghyun from Big Bang (rapper/actor)
Ga In from Brown Eyed Girls
Di from Rania
Jung Shin from CNBlue
Dohee from Tiny-G
Mark from GOT7
Mino from Winner
Yewon from [former; they disbanded] Jewelry
Jiyoon from 4Minute
Youngji from KARA
Soryong from Tasty (yeah, I know, they're twins. Whatever XD)
Tablo from EPIK HIGH
Yoon Mi Rae
Lee Hi
Baek Ji Young
Jung In
Jo Jung Chi
Eric Nam
Kim Jong Kook
Kang Gary
Ha Dong Hoon
Bi (Rain)
Song Ga Yeon
Park Min Woo
Lee Dong Wook
Song Ji Hyo
Song Joong Ki
Go Soo
Han Hyo Joo
Im Joo Hwan
Lee Kwang Soo
Kim Woo Bin
Yoo Jae Suk
Ji Suk Jin
Jang Dong Min
I hope you all are doing well! <3
Monday, 21 July 2014
Whoa...I Didn't Give This A Title
Have you ever felt like your brain was melting? I don't mean in the physical sense, because that would not be good and very gross, but in the figurative sense...that your world is slowing down.
I may have a problem if this doesn't happen to anyone else.
What I mean is that sometimes some moments in my life happen very slowly. Like, to the point where I think a switch in my brain was flipped and suddenly I'm seeing things in slow motion, but it feels fast forwarded too.
The way I'm wording it probably isn't helping either. But I don't know how else to explain it!
Okay, say you're walking down the stairs to the living room, or den in my case. You get to the den and you sit down on the couch to watch a movie. Now, as you sit down and get comfortable, your head starts to pound a little and you feel a bit dizzy. You don't worry about it because it will go away soon. But as you reach for the remotes to turn the TV on and start the DVD, you feel as though your hand is reaching out ten times faster than it normally does, when in fact your brain is giving you the impression that you're going ten times slower.
It's a weird scenario, but this is a real life situation that has happened to me. You probably don't believe me and think I'm crazy, but I am being genuinely truthful.
This doesn't occur a lot in my life. Maybe once a month or less. But it still happens.
It's a weird feeling, but it's cool at the same time. My thoughts go a million miles an hour while my actions go a lot slower.
It's also scary, because I don't know why it's happening, and I sometimes freak out in my head when it happens. Like, is my body catching up with my brain, or vice versa?
Anyway, yeah, I just wanted to let you know. This was a little blurb from my life.
I needed to escape a bit. I haven't been feeling well for a while: my stomach has been making weird noises and acting weird for the past couple weeks, and I don't know how to make it feel better. School is also super stressful at the moment, since it's the end of the semester and things are due. I also have been feeling the need to stay up for longer than I want to...I want to go to sleep, my eyes are tired, but something in me is telling me to stay awake until midnight or later. Which sucks. I guess my body is getting used to going to bed late, which is not something it's supposed to do!!
Okay, I need to go now. Maybe find a movie to watch, or YouTube, or a TV show, or something. I'll see all y'all in a month!
I may have a problem if this doesn't happen to anyone else.
What I mean is that sometimes some moments in my life happen very slowly. Like, to the point where I think a switch in my brain was flipped and suddenly I'm seeing things in slow motion, but it feels fast forwarded too.
The way I'm wording it probably isn't helping either. But I don't know how else to explain it!
Okay, say you're walking down the stairs to the living room, or den in my case. You get to the den and you sit down on the couch to watch a movie. Now, as you sit down and get comfortable, your head starts to pound a little and you feel a bit dizzy. You don't worry about it because it will go away soon. But as you reach for the remotes to turn the TV on and start the DVD, you feel as though your hand is reaching out ten times faster than it normally does, when in fact your brain is giving you the impression that you're going ten times slower.
It's a weird scenario, but this is a real life situation that has happened to me. You probably don't believe me and think I'm crazy, but I am being genuinely truthful.
This doesn't occur a lot in my life. Maybe once a month or less. But it still happens.
It's a weird feeling, but it's cool at the same time. My thoughts go a million miles an hour while my actions go a lot slower.
It's also scary, because I don't know why it's happening, and I sometimes freak out in my head when it happens. Like, is my body catching up with my brain, or vice versa?
Anyway, yeah, I just wanted to let you know. This was a little blurb from my life.
I needed to escape a bit. I haven't been feeling well for a while: my stomach has been making weird noises and acting weird for the past couple weeks, and I don't know how to make it feel better. School is also super stressful at the moment, since it's the end of the semester and things are due. I also have been feeling the need to stay up for longer than I want to...I want to go to sleep, my eyes are tired, but something in me is telling me to stay awake until midnight or later. Which sucks. I guess my body is getting used to going to bed late, which is not something it's supposed to do!!
Okay, I need to go now. Maybe find a movie to watch, or YouTube, or a TV show, or something. I'll see all y'all in a month!
Monday, 16 June 2014
Younger Self
Have you ever looked at your old sent emails and/or messages sent on various other social networking sites, namely Facebook?
I did.
About a month ago, I decided to go through my FB inbox and clean out a bunch of messages I didn't think were necessary to keep ie. with people I had unfriended ages ago. Reading these old messages made me realize how silly I was! I mean, I realize this is true for all people, but it was so embarrassing! Some of the things I had said to other people (namely guys I had a crush on) when I was just starting high school, for example...Aah, the horror! It made me sad how stupid I sounded. I shouldn't feel bad, because I'm sure everyone goes through this awkward period of time in their life, BUT STILL. AWKO TACO.
Let me know if you've had the same experience. Tell me a specific time? ;)
I did.
About a month ago, I decided to go through my FB inbox and clean out a bunch of messages I didn't think were necessary to keep ie. with people I had unfriended ages ago. Reading these old messages made me realize how silly I was! I mean, I realize this is true for all people, but it was so embarrassing! Some of the things I had said to other people (namely guys I had a crush on) when I was just starting high school, for example...Aah, the horror! It made me sad how stupid I sounded. I shouldn't feel bad, because I'm sure everyone goes through this awkward period of time in their life, BUT STILL. AWKO TACO.
Let me know if you've had the same experience. Tell me a specific time? ;)
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